Rape Envy (III)
I wanted to invade
your body like ants
in the Valley of Horribles:
and then there’s fucking.
There are two reasons
for saying I’m sorry:
one for what I did
and one for what happened
and then we
understand we’ve forgotten
Rape Envy (VIII)
Let’s pretend for a moment
that I am the smell of your body / and
what I find in the clutch of your elbow
when I’m sober / is oleander
or a purple tuck of bruise /
/ or coriander or coitus / O, orgasm
we spent days in the ICU recovering from / O, Adonis,
by sinews and viscera I am joined.
Rape Envy (XII)
with lines adapted from Dean Young
I wanted to make a double-helix in your mouth and unravel it.
I wanted our tongues to make a French braid and they did.
I wrapped my arms around your waist tight like a seatbelt
in the parking lot at 5:00 a.m. on a morning cool like sirloin.
I held my breath as I would a dandelion and sucked yours in.
I thought about you and gave my brain a charley horse.
My friends would probably say I’m not allowed
to say that your lips were soft in a poem, but they were.
I can think of ways to describe how soft they were:
Like raspberries, like they were sewn to the gaping maws of angels,
like the goldfish corpses we retrieved with cheap nets,
pre-rigor mortis, tender and sweet.
Beneath your clothing is skin and beneath your skin
are the bones and the viscera—all those reasons
why our bodies can be considered schematics,
why our bodies can be considered blueprints,
the world’s most reliable taxonomies,
why a firecracker freezes in midair to
salute us, mouthing: Elephant shoe two, too.
We are so gravitational that we turn to chalk.
We should go to the moon in a rented spaceship
wrapped in a mezzo-soprano of machs
and carve our initials in its surface with nails.
There, we can prove everything mankind thinks
it knows about the stars is bullshit.
For example, Ptolemy never taught us
that they say gesundheit when you sneeze into your hand.
Galileo was all like: Shooby-dooby-doop. Shoobity-doobity-doop. And
I’m sorry. I was unclear on the capacities of attraction.
When love is an argument for rapture, that’s when we’ll say,
Hark, motherfuckers! Lo! Maybe now’s the time to buy a sports car
and floor it all the way to Churchill Downs because
darling, darling, everywhere is flames but where we are, and
here we are, invited to eternity, our handprints on its glass,
the smudges entwined like a fluff of wisteria.
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